even my mum noticed that i'm stressed out.
i was standing in the doorway to the kitchen while she was preparing lunch and all i had to do was let out a bit of a sigh.
she came over and put her hand on my back.

"are you stressed?"
-silence-
"you know, you dont have to do this to yourself. as long as you've tried your best.."

that's something i havent heard in a long time. all this while it's been "why did you fail this test? do you know what's your problem? you procrastinate too much, drag things out too much.. yadayada.. canoeing"

i couldn't say a word to her just now, just random imperceptible noises.. and yet tears are spilling as i type this entry.
God what is wrong with me?

Save Our Souls
please?
God i feel so distanced from You.
i need to think. about what's going on in my life, about where my life is going, about my unhealthy obsessions. pull those thoughts back. those that i've let slipped because i thought i don't have the time to think them through.

funny how i can hang stubbornly on to some math question and try and try again to get the answer right but not want to think when all it requires is some honest reassessment of my feelings and priorities.

Haagen-Dazs green tea is LOVE.
go to, then; your considerate stone.
9:01 PM
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